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Jul. 18th, 2008

me and the beach

You've got my heart, now take my life...

I want to get a post in here before I run out to the library.

I'm debating on whether or not I'm going to St. Michael's this weekend to see my parents. The traffic going over the bridge is crazy, but I want a weekend away from the city and everything.

So, Kale came over last night. It was kind of awkward at first. We didn't even sit near each other. He was on the couch and I was in the papasan. When he came over, we made small talk, asking about work and stuff. I told him what Kelly told me about her and John and then he told me that his parents separated for awhile because their dad cheated. It must run in the family. He said that he was mad at his dad for the longest time because of what happened. But his parents went to counseling and got back together. And they are like, the cutest couple ever! I pointed out that all situations are different and I'm not his mom or his sister. He said that he would give me time, space, or whatever I needed. After the D-List was over, I walked him outside and I told him that I missed him. I started to cry and he hugged me.

Jul. 17th, 2008

Me2

Fatally Yours

I've been trying to drown myself in work and the gym. I will be all alone, but dammit, I'll be fit and trim and totally employed! Actually, I talked to Alan on the phone Tuesday night for a few hours and we had a pretty good discussion about Kale.  He told me that maybe I expected too much from people around me. I told him that it wasn't too much to expect my boyfriend to NOT cheat on me or to NOT put his job before me. Alan said that I need to "give the kid a break. It's not easy being in a relationship with you." He said that I was emotionally high maintenance.  After I talked to him, I talked to Kelly. We'd been avoiding each other since it happened.  I just don't want to hear her defend him. I asked her if she had ever been cheated on and she said that she had. And I know him! He was her high school boyfriend and one of Kale’s best friends. It happened while he was at baseball camp. When she told me that I was like, "Damn, he cheated on you a guy?!!" She laughed and said that he had met some girl who lived near the camp. I asked her what happened and she said that she forgave him and they continued to date for 5 more years. Apparently, she and John have quite some history! They dated all through high school and most of college and even though they broke up, they’re still best friends. But she said that the hardest part was starting over. She was like, “It was so tempting when we were fighting to throw it back in his face or use it to make him feel guilty.” I think that’s what’s holding me back from calling Kale. I’m afraid that if we’re kissing, I’m going to think about him kissing his ex. Or worse!

During lunch today, I got weak and called Kale. He sounded really happy to hear from me and for a minute, I wanted to tell him that I still loved him. Instead I just asked him if he wanted to come over and watch My Life on the D-List tonight. He said yes.

Jul. 14th, 2008

Me2

But We Got Lucky Once Before...

So, I’ve recapped the good now it’s time to recap the bad: my break up with Kale. God, how I wish that were a typo...

So, Friday night Kale came over and I made spaghetti for dinner. This is significant because as I said before, I am a terrible cook! Seriously, I nearly set my dad on fire once! So, I managed not to burn the apartment down and Kale gave me an awesome present. He had mentioned to his mom that I collect Nancy Drew books and she went in the attic and found some of her old ND books and gave them to him to give to me. Yeah, sweet, I know, but at the end of the night, I wanted to throw those books at his penis.

After dinner, we were watching tv and he turned to me and said that he had something to tell me and that it might change the way I feel about him, but he had to know that he was sorry and he loved me. He said that he went to a 4th of July party at a friend’s house and his ex-girlfriend was there and he ended up getting drunk and he slept with her.

I’ll let that absorb in for a minute.

I didn’t say anything at first because I was shocked. I kept thinking that he had to be kidding. He would never do that. Then he started to cry and he kept telling me that he was sorry and it was an accident. When I heard him cry (I couldn’t even look at him at this point) I just snapped and slapped his hand away from me and jumped up and yelled at him to get out. As he walked to the door, he kept crying and trying to hold my hands. I kept slapping at him and yelled at him to get off of me and he left and then I just crawled into bed and cried. It seemed like I had been in there forever and then I heard Kelly come home and I pretended to be asleep, but I had forgotten to lock my door and she knocked and came into my room. She took one look at me and said, “He told you.” I asked her when she found out and she said he told her the morning after it happened. She started to cry too and asked me if there was anything she could do and I said that she could just sit with me and she did. We sat in my bed, in the dark, and cried.

Okay, I’m getting way too upset over this so I’m going to stop here and pick up later. Preferably after I’ve had a few drinks.
Me2

My Mexico

I had a fabulous time in Mexico. It was what was waiting for me when I got home that's ruined everything.
 
I'll start at the beginning.
 
I left work early and finished packing and then TheJamies, Kelly, Kale, and some friends went to the DC Improv to see GirlJamie's favorite comedian, Brett Leake. He's unique because he does this mix of comedy and motivational speaking and he's totally clean. Doesn't swear or make any off color jokes. It was about midnight when I got home and I had a little bit more packing to do and then I got about 2 hours of sleep and Kale woke us up at 3:15 so we could get to the airport on time. There weren't a lot of people in the airport and I think GirlJamie and I had just enough time to get iced coffee before we had to board the plane. We stopped in Atlanta and waited about 2 hours for our connecting flight to Puerto Vallarta.
 
The only people who were on the plane were either wedding guests or members of the wedding party. We had spread ourselves out and while everyone else slept, GirlJamie and I had some chats about our guys. I told her that as against marriage as I am, if I had to get married, I would want to marry someone like Kale. That really hurts now considering what happened after I got home, but I'll get to that in due time. I realized that once she was married, our friendship would change. Not drastically, but she would be experiencing things without me and that had never happened before. She would be going through stuff that I wouldn't be able to relate to and that made me a little sad. We'd been together since we first met at GW.
 
So, we landed in sunny Mexico on Wednesday afternoon and then got ourselves all checked in. The wedding coordinator met with us to show us like, where the ceremony and the receptions would be and what we wanted to do for the rehearsal dinner. We made our hair appointments and spent the rest of the day by the beach.
 
On Thursday we lounged around the beach some more and did some shopping. There was a little hut on the beach between our hotel and the one next door and vendors were selling jewelry, dresses, and other things. We read a brochure about an ATV trip in the mountains and we thought that it sounded like fun so we made reservations to do that on Monday.
 
Friday was more hanging out at the beach in the morning and then the rehearsal. We were lucky because the people at the hotel arraigned for a sunset cruise so after dinner, we all boarded this little catamaran and then sailed into the sunset. They played music and served tequila and played patriotic songs. Well, it WAS the 4th of July. That night GirlJamie couldn't sleep so we ended up staying up until 2 am, watching movies and ordering room service.
 
Saturday went by like a blur. People were popping in and out of our room all morning and it was chaos. But then we just yelled that GirlJamie needed to get dressed and everyone left. We hadn’t eaten much that day so we were starving. We ordered room service and GirlJamie ordered a hamburger and then had to eat it standing up, with her robe on backwards. She looked so beautiful though. After eating the hamburger, I mean. And I started to wish that Kale was there with me. The ceremony went by fast. The Jamies aren't religious so they didn't really want any gospel readings or bible verses. They wrote their own vows and they were so sweet. They both cried. BoyJamie started to cry when GirlJamie walked down the aisle and his reaction almost made me cry. Yes, I do have a heart under all of that ice! The reception was fun. There was lots of tequila and dancing. I lucked out and didn't have to give a speech. GirlJamie and I snuck out to move her stuff out of my room and into BoyJamie's room and then we had a good cry together. She told me not to be afraid of marriage and that I'll want to do it some day and blah blah blah. I told her that I would just live vicariously through her. She asked me if I missed Kale and I told her that I did and she was like, “That’s a start!”
 
Most of us slept in on Sunday. I took advantage of the free calls to the US that the hotel offered and called Kale, but he wasn’t home. I left him a message, telling him that I loved him and I missed him. Remember this, Reader. It will be important later on.
 
On Monday we went downtown to do our ATV tour. I rode with Will, the best man, but it started to rain and so our ATV trip got cut shorts. We stayed downtown and did some more shopping and I asked the locals which tequila they preferred. They all said Don Julio so I bought some. Believe me; it came in handy because I did some heavy drinking this weekend.
 
On Tuesday, it was our last day there. We did last minute shopping and beach lounging. It rained again, but not until after dinner. I did most of my packing Tuesday night and then called Kale to make sure he knew what time to pick me up from the airport and stuff.
 
We said goodbye to Mexico on Wednesday. I was sort of ready to get back the US and to my life. I missed Kelly and our little apartment. The flight from Puerto Vallarta to Atlanta was more crowded this time and we had a delay when we left Atlanta so we didn’t get back to DC until after midnight. I was so tired and Kale said that I fell asleep with all of my clothes on.
 
I took Thursday off from work to recover and unpack. Kale arraigned to work a half day, but unfortunately it was the latter half of the day and I ended up sleeping too late and missing him. Probably for the best now that I look back on it.
 
It was actually nice to be back at work on Friday. I had tons of emails to answer and I was super productive. In fact, I just got an important task to do so I’ll just finish this entry and this story will be continued!

Jun. 30th, 2008

Me2

Packing!

My mom called me yesterday to tell me that Jeff's wife, Jennifer, had the baby.  They had a 6 lbs baby boy.  He has blonde hair and blue eyes and they named him Patrick Oliver.  Oliver is Jeff's middle name, too.  And it was my dad's mother's maiden name.  And it's Kim's middle name.  We all have maiden names as middle names.  Mine is Martin, which was my mother's maiden name.  My family doesn't believe in normal names.  Anywho, so she told me to call them and congratulate them.  I did.  My brother and I had a nice conversation, but we probably won't talk again until Thanksgiving.  He said he was going to send me and Kim pictures of the baby.

I was hungover most of the weekend.  I drank like crazy!  I even drunk dialed Alan!  Ooops.  I told Kale about it though.  He was a little mad, like, "Um...please don't do that again, booze hound"  I don't think I even got through to Alan.  I think I left him a drunken message on his voice mail.  Classy!

There are a million things that I've got to get done before we leave on Wednesday.  I'm getting my mani, pedi, and wax today.  Tomorrow I've got to be packed by 6:00 pm because we're going to the DC Improv and I'll be too exhausted to pack afterwards.  I made a checklist of everything that I need to make sure gets packed (like my dress!) and Kelly's going to help me pack it all up and check it off.

I hate packing.

Jun. 27th, 2008

Me2

Bachelorette Weekend!

I just talked to Jamie and she's all excited about her Bachelorette Party this weekend. We're basically going to celebrate the whole weekend.

Kale asked me what time we need to leave for the airport on Wednesday morning and I said, "4." He was like, "In the morning?!" I think he's pissed, but he doesn't have to take me. He's the one that offered. I also think he's mad that we're going to party all weekend long.

We're starting tonight with bowling at Lucky Strike and then we're going to several clubs. I was never a big club person (I prefer the bars) but I think it's going to be a lot of fun.

4 more days until Mexico!!!!

Jun. 26th, 2008

Me2

Guns and Alligators

While everyone at work is taking about the Supreme Court's ruling that DC's handgun ban is unconstitutional, I'm more interested in the Florida teenager who had his arm ripped off by an alligator.

Here is the article:

Teen who lost arm to alligator: ‘God was with me’
He blames gator overpopulation for attack: ‘They never really bothered me’


By Mike Celizic
TODAYShow.com contributor
updated 9:36 a.m. ET, Wed., June. 25, 2008

Kasey Edwards had grown up around alligators — so he knew that when he had a 600-pound bull gator clamped on his left arm and a buoy rope gripped desperately in his right hand, he was in a tug-of-war he couldn’t win.

“I don’t care who you are: If an 11½-foot alligator tries to pull you under the water and you hang on, there’s something else holding you on out there,” the 18-year-old told TODAY’s Matt Lauer in an exclusive interview Wednesday, three days after losing his left arm to the gator, but winning the war to survive. “I definitely felt that God was with me that day to keep me on that rope.”

Edwards’ life-and-death battle with one of nature’s deadliest predators played out at 2:30 Sunday morning in a canal that fed into Lake Okeechobee, the giant freshwater lake between Miami and Orlando in Florida. After an afternoon spent swimming and drinking beer at Vero Beach, Edwards and some male and female friends had gone to Lake Okeechobee to hang out along the canal.

The group had stopped drinking beer before they left Vero Beach around 6 p.m. with a designated driver, Edwards said, denying allegations that they were intoxicated at the lake. “It was 2 o’clock Sunday morning at this time. Nobody was intoxicated at all,” he said.

They had seen alligators, and when Edwards stripped off his shirt and announced he was going to take a swim in the canal, his friends tried to dissuade him, but he dove in anyway and swam across the canal and then parallel to a row of buoys that lined the far bank.

‘More aggressive’
“I’d grown up around alligators as a little boy, swimming in the canals and the lakes,” the crew-cut 18-year-old said in explaining why he jumped in the water. “They never really bothered me.”

He blamed what he feels are the misguided efforts of animal-rights activists for allowing the Florida alligator population to mushroom in the past 10 years. With so many gators competing for limited resources, they’ve become much more aggressive, he said.

“They’re just in such a competitive environment; the alligators just become so much more aggressive,” he told Lauer. “Ten years ago, you jump in the water, they’re going to stay on the bank and look for a fish or a turtle or a bird, and for the most part just leave humans alone. Now, that’s not the case. It’s definitely been a wake-up call to me, and I hope it’s a wake-up call to a lot of people that alligators are definitely very aggressive.”

Then, with a rueful grin, he added, “They’re out for blood.”

On Sunday morning, it was Edwards’ blood that was on the menu. As he swam along the buoy line, his friends saw the big gator swimming after him. They screamed and yelled, but the water muffled what they were saying.

“I figured they were either cheering me on, or there were a few girls up there telling me not to do it,” he said. “I never in a million years would have imagined they actually saw an 11½-foot alligator swimming toward me the whole entire time.”

Edwards was speaking from the hospital where he was taken for treatment after the attack. He was surrounded by his doctor and two friends, whose quick application of first aid helped save his life, and he frequently grinned broadly, apparently unperturbed by the fact that his left arm had been reduced to about six inches of bandaged stump sticking out from his shoulder.

“I’m feeling pretty good — pretty optimistic about everything,” Edwards said. “I got a real good doctor, a good support group of friends and family around me. It’s pretty hard not to stay positive when you have everything working for you like that.”

Face to face with death
He remembers every detail of the attack.

“I was bringing my right arm forward to swim and my left arm was stretched backwards, and I felt something clamp down on it, and immediately I knew what it was,” Edwards said, as calmly as if he were describing a trip to the grocery store. “I knew an alligator had bitten me. I turned around and the alligator surfaced, and I looked at it face to face. Everything got real quiet, no sounds — I could hear everybody on the bank yelling, but that’s about it.”

Alligators kill by clamping onto their prey and dragging it underwater to drown it — Edwards knew that’s what the animal that had his arm in its huge jaws was going to try to do.

“It did what they call a death roll. It pulled me under the water about five times, and I kept holding onto the cable as it pulled me under,” he said. That, Edwards said, was when he felt that God helped keep his head above water to keep from drowning. Finally, he heard his left arm crack and the alligator let go of him long enough to swallow the limb.

“At that point I didn’t realize that I had lost my arm,” said Edwards, whose only thought was to swim back across the canal to his friends and help. But the gator, having polished off its appetizer, came back for the main course. It hit the young man in the stomach, cutting him and knocking the wind out of him. But Edwards fought back.

“I gouged its eye, and at that time it swirled away and I began to try to swim back to the other side of the bank,” he said. “At that time I realized I was kind of swimming a little bit to the right and not as fast, and I realized I was missing most or all of my left arm.”

Fast action
He grinned again at the mental image of himself swimming a crooked line because he didn’t know he had only one arm. He managed to paddle back to the shore, where one friend, Robbie Spiers, 21, hauled him out of the water and a second friend, Robert Schriber, 21, wrapped a shirt around the wound and applied pressure to stop the bleeding until a medevac helicopter arrived to take Edwards to Holmes Regional Medical Center.

Dr. Daniel Branham, who treated Edwards, said he lost very little blood, thanks to the actions of Schriber, who is training to be an EMT. Branham added that after another surgery to clean up the stump, Edwards will be an excellent candidate for a prosthetic arm. 

Lauer asked Edwards to address reports in the Florida media that the group at the canal was intoxicated.

“If we were so intoxicated, I don’t think at all my friends would have been able to conduct themselves the way they did — the fast thinking,” Edwards responded. “And also for me to be able to go back to what I know about being attacked by an alligator, knowing exactly what steps to take to try to escape from him.”

He said that the real issue is the overpopulation of alligators. Florida wildlife authorities issue 3,000 permits a year for alligator hunters, he said, but animal-rights activists buy as many as two-thirds of the permits to prevent the alligators from being killed. More than 10,000 gators are also killed every year after being declared nuisances.

The alligator that attacked Edwards was hunted down and killed. During a necropsy, Edwards’ arm was found in the animal’s stomach, but it wasn’t in any condition to be reattached.

“I’m not saying that animal-rights activists are in the wrong always, but this is a bad situation,” Edwards said. “Only about one-third of the alligators that are supposed to be destroyed every year to keep the population at a safe level are actually being destroyed. Because of the gross overpopulation, it’s making a super competitive environment — and in a competitive environment, they’re going to become man-eaters.”


Alright, well, now here's my take on the story.  Basically, I think Kasey Edwards is a moron.

First up, he says that he's been around alligators his whole life.  Okay, great, so then he should know that alligators don't fuck around so, if you're jonesing for a swim, maybe you should wait until it's daylight and not 2 freaking A.M. IN THE MORNING!  Jamie and I went to Clearwater, FL for Spring Break once and the first thing we learned was that alligators are pretty much in every body of water down there and you need to be very aware

This kid is hanging out with his friends, drinking, and decides to go for a swim?!  What?!!  I don't even live near alligators and I know that is a dumb move.  He claims that though the group had been drinking, they stopped drinking at 6 pm and weren't intoxicated when he pulled a Michael Phelps.  He's like, "If we were drunk, we couldn't have reacted as quickly as we did."  Now, I'm not saying he's lying, but there have been times when I’ve been drunk and something's happened to bolt me out of my drunken state and I think that if a carnivorous reptile was trying to snack on your arm, that would sober me up pretty damn quick.  Also, correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't 18 considered underage in Florida?!  But why bother with that when there are other people to blame!

The teen even admits that he and his group of friends had seen alligators prior to the early morning swim.  So why then, jackass, would you decide to swim?  I guess he forgot to put on his alligator-deflecting pants and they'd never bothered him before.  Well, as my mom would say, "There's a first time for everything."  The alligator was just doing what nature intended.  Animals don't know any better.  People, however, do and therefore have control over our actions and need to take responsibility for our actions, but again, let's spread the blame around.

How about we blame those damn, soy eating animal rights activists, instead? It's their fault that they saved alligators from extinction and are buying hunting permits.  Let's not blame the overdevelopment of the wetlands.  We encroach on the alligators lands and then get mad when they get in our way.  But that's America.  We treated the Native Americans the same way.  I just think it's very telling that not once did he admit that maybe he wasn't clearly when he went swimming.  It's okay Kasey, people do stupid things all the time.  Just admit that you screwed up.  We won't hate you for it.

I call bullshit when he says that 10 years ago, you wouldn't have to worry about alligator attacks.  I found a database (see, I love doing research!) that lists alligator attacks and it goes back all the way to 1928, so I don't believe that it's only recently that alligators have been attacking human.

And if I were his friend, the one training to be an EMT, I would be pissed that God is getting credit for the save.  I mean, God wasn't the one telling him now to go swimming and then pulling his stupid ass out of the river when he did.

Jun. 24th, 2008

Me2

Kim's Visit

I got home last night and slept for like, 10 hours. I woke up at 11pm, ate some mac and cheese and then fell back asleep. Kelly told me this morning that her friend Jill came over and was freaking out about something and Kelly kept trying to shush her so I wouldn't wake up. I told her that I think I was dead.

So, Thursday afternoon, I picked up Kim and then we came back to the apartment and watched Days of Our Lives and fell asleep. Kelly came home and the three of us, plus Jill went to our usual hang out, Cleveland Park Bar & Grill. Kim and I drank and ate until the wee hours of the morning and then woke up around noon on Friday and went to the Hirshhorn Museum and then waited at home for Kale and Kelly to come home. The four of us went to The Dubliner on Capital Street.

We just ran errands and hung out on Saturday and I promised Kim that I would take her to Ben's Chili Bowl which is like a DC monument. You can't go to DC and not go to Ben's Chili Bowl. Kale came over and the four of us played Trival Pursuit, but we played in teams. It was Kim and I against Kale and Kelly and they won.

Kim and I did some shopping Sunday morning before she left and went to Ben's Chili bowl one more time. I cried the whole way from the airport back to home and then read the rest of the day.

She called me Sunday night, when she got home and said that she had a great time and she really liked Kale. I asked her when I was going to see her again and she said that she was thinking of going to our parent's vacation house in St. Michael's in August. She had talked to Jeff at her graduation and he said that depending on when his wife gives birth, he wanted to go. We used to spend our whole summer in St. Michael's and it was so much fun. That was like, the only time that everyone got along. I told her that I would see if I could get some time off in August to go.

There are 7 days until Mexico and I'm so excited. I told Kale that I wished he could come. I even talk to GirlJamie to see if there were any guests that might cancel, but she didn't think there were. Oh well, we've been spending so much time together lately, maybe it will be good for us to do our own thing for a week.

My stomach is growling and I'm hungry. I think I may have an early lunch today.

Jun. 23rd, 2008

Me2

CK Weekend

That stands for Carolyn-Kim Weekend.  My sister left yesterday and already I miss her.  We're close even though we're 5 years apart.

But I wrote up an entry for [info]1bruce1 and I can't type anymore.  My fingers are numb and I think I'm getting carpal tunnel.  I'll write more later.

Jun. 19th, 2008

Me2

Carolyn Keene's Day Off

I hate waking up early on a day off. I usually get up at 5 am on weekdays and since my body is so used to that schedule, I can't ever sleep past 9! Even after getting busy last night! That's right Carolyn and Kale 'shippers, you can squee your little hearts out. I totally didn't think it was going to happen, either.
 
Kale "picked" me up from work and then I went home to pack a bag and tell Kelly that I wouldn't be home until the morning. She's was all, "OMGeeeeeeeeeeeeee" in such a high pitch that I thought dogs in the Eastern Shore would bark their asses off! Sheesh. I guess I’m not the only one who can’t wait for the dry spell to end. So when we went back to his apartment, we ate Panera for dinner (yum!) and then settled in to watch Top Chef...only to have his roommates CHANGE. THE. CHANNEL! But he TiVo'd it for me and I ended up watching it this morning. It wasn't as juicy as I had hoped, but I made a mental note to talk to Kelly about getting TiVo. Am I the only one in America who doesn't have it? We ended up watching something called Ultimate Fighter, which is similar to Top Chef, only instead of cooking, they fight. At least that's how Kale talked me into watching it. Watching him and his roommates watch this show was hilarious. They were all screaming at the tv and even I surprised myself when I yelled at the tv for the guy in the brown shorts to punch the guy in the blue shorts in the face.  The guy in the brown shorts looked kind of like Kale so he's my favorite and he ended up winning the fight and gets to go to another fight where they'll crown someone the Ultimate Fighter and then the guy he was suppose to fight got drunk in Las Vegas and kicked out a window in a limo and basically made an ass of himself in the hotel so he got kicked off, which has never happened before and then some bald guy named Dana (snicker!) yelled at him! This show is amazing!  It's like a soap opera!
 
So after viewing that awesome show (seriously, I’m hook now) Kale and I sat in bed, like “Soooo…this is awkward.” It was like we knew what we wanted to do, but we didn’t want to force it so we started making out and the rest is history. Dirty history. Ha! Just kidding. :) Seriously, I’m totally into this guy. How is it that I’ve lived with his sister for a year and neither of us have realized how awesome the other is until recently? I even made him breakfast this morning. I really just put some cereal in a bowl and added some milk, but it was the thought that counted! Not cooking for him is actually the sweetest thing I can do for him since I’m terrible at cooking! No joke! When I was little, I burned half of the kitchen ceiling, set several kitchen towels on fire, and singed my Dad’s arm hair.
 
Now I’m home and have nothing to do. Wait, that’s a lie. Kelly brought me some books from the library so I’m going to do some reading until I have to pick Kim up. We’re pretty close and it was really sad when she decided to stay in South Carolina after college, but I can’t blame her since I decided to stay in DC. She’s just so far away. At least I’m still an hour away from my parents so it’s far enough away that they won’t be showing up unexpected, but close enough that I can go home when I need my Mommy. Okay, I’m shutting up now and cracking open a book.

Jun. 18th, 2008

Me2

Girl Fight

So GirlJamie and I got into a huge fight yesterday.  I went with her to pick up the tuxedos for the wedding and then we had lunch.  During lunch I started to tell her about Kale (whom she hasn't met yet!) and she was like, "Eye Roll!"  I was like, "What gives?" and she launched into a whole thing about how I have been so into my new relationship that I've been ignoring her.  I was like, "Um...did I not do the dress fitting and tuxedo thing with you and are we not here, having lunch together?"  Apparently, that's not what she meant. Her main issues are:

1.       Every time she calls me, I’m out with one of the Ks (meaning Kale or Kelly)
2.       I take forever to call her back
3.       I’m shirking my MOH responsibilities

I counter argued that 1) she can’t be mad at me for actually getting along and being friends with my roommate.  I was her roommate for years and we are BFFs, but we still maintained friendships outside of each other, and 2) when she and BoyJamie first got together, they were inseparable so it’s hypocritical of her to be upset with me for displaying the same behavior she did years earlier.  I couldn’t really argue the second point because I am bad at calling people back, but she’s known me for how long?  It has always been an inside joke about me and bad phone etiquette.  I don’t even know what to say about the third argument.  I told her that the resort in Mexico is taking care of most of the details, like flowers, cake, and the reception so I’m not sure what all it is she has left to do.  She did a nasty little sarcastic laugh and said, “I can’t wait to say that to you when you get married!”  Burn!  Ouch, GirlJamie.
 
I have never been a part of a wedding.  I've been to the, but never IN them, like part of the wedding party.
 
Side note:  My older brother, Jeff, eloped so he never had a wedding and even if he did, I doubt he would’ve had me and Kim as bridesmaids.  He’s our half-brother (same dad, different mom) and he’s never liked us, but Kim (that’s my sister) thinks he’s really just mad at Dad for getting married so quickly after his mom passed away.  He was 5 when she died (from ovarian cancer) and my parents met and married a year later, and then I was born a year later and then five years later, Kim was born.  He has his moments though, when he’s nice to us and acts like a real older brother.  End of side note.
 
I was like, “Listen, Bridezilla, I have never been an MOH and neither have you and I’m doing the best I can, even calling your mom for help, but rather than bitch me out for not doing anything, maybe you should tell me what I need to be doing?!”  She started to cry a little and that just does it to me EVERY.  TIME.  I can’t stand to see people cry.  Even if I’m super duper pissed at them, if they cry, it’s all over for me and I soften immediately.  I’m so easy, that way.  So I melted and apologized and she melted and apologized.  She said that she had forgotten how when you’re with a new guy, you want to be together all the time and that she needed to cut me some slack because I am happier than I’ve been in awhile.  I told her that I never meant for her to feel like she was being ditched and she cried that she’s afraid that once she’s a Mrs., she’ll lose her friendships with all of her non-married friends (and that would be all of them…she’s the first in our group to get married).  I told her that she would never lose me and it was all very Carrie and Miranda.  I told her that I would work on the lack of returning phone calls, but that I might be beyond help.  We came up with a system; she will text me with WEDDING if it is urgent.  She even suggested that before we leave for Mexico, she and BoyJamie should double date with Kale and I.
 
I researched MOH responsibilities at TheKnot.com and checked off what I had done thus far.
 
Damn! I think Jeff had the right idea when he eloped.
 
Anyway, so GirlJamie and I made up!  Yay!
 
Kale called last night and asked me when my sister was getting here on Thursday. I told him that I had to be at National at 2 pm.  He said that since I was taking Thursday off, I should come over Wednesday night and by “come over,” he meant “sleep over.”  OMG!  I giggled and said I would, but under one condition; we had to watch Real World AND Top Chef, uninterrupted.  He agreed.  Someone’s getting laid!  Just kidding.  Now, I’m not saying anything’s going to happen, but if something should happen, I better make sure that I’m matchy matchy with my undergarments tonight and that they be HOTT!

P.S. I talked to GirlJamie about the toasting and she said I didn't have to do it.  Whew!

Jun. 17th, 2008

Girl Detective

My Career Path!

I spent about two hours in my boss' office this morning, discussing my career path. When I met Kale for dinner last night, he asked me further about me wanting to change careers. I told him that I've been at my job for 4 years, including my first year that I was an intern, and that I was still doing the same things now that I was doing then.  Also, the only difference between what I do and what my boss does is that she gets credit for the work and I don't.  He said that I was under stimulated and suggested that it might change once the presidential campaign really started, because I'm mostly interested in how policies affect minorities and having a minority run for president is yooge!  I agreed, but still wasn't convinced.  Then he told me that I needed to talk to my boss about what she thinks would be a good career path for me.  I actually have several "bosses" (they're the Research Associates), but with my interest and education background, I mostly work for my boss.  She's kind of like my mentor.  Kale pointed that out and was like, "You've been with her the whole time so she's the best person to talk to about this stuff.  She knows you and blah blah blah bossycakes."  He was right.  

So, this morning I went into her office and I said how I wasn't sure where I fit in here or where I could grow. She was actually really cool about it.  She was like, "I've been there.  You feel like you've paid your dues and want something more."  I was like, "Um, exactly!!"  So, we talked about some articles she was working on and whether I would be interested in working with her on it AND GETTING CREDIT!  I told her that I was all over that!  She also thought that I might be good at working with the summer interns on showing them what it's like to work there (since I've been where they are) and also to assist them on their policy briefs.  See, at the end of their internship, they all write a policy brief and they need like, a sponsor to help them.  My boss was my sponsor when I did mine on juvenile rehabilitation policies.  I told her that I would love to do that too.  Overall, it was a good meeting and I am certainly feeling better about my job.  It's rare when my professional and personal lives are in sync.  I just know something’s going to happen to screw it all up.

A lot of people are leaving work to attend Tim Russert's memorial.  My boss and gave me the rest of the afternoon off before she left.  I called GirlJamie to see if she was attending the memorial (since it was at the school where she teaches), but she isn’t.  She's out doing wedding things and I told her that she needed her MOH there and I would meet her downtown.  So, that's what I’m headed.

Jun. 16th, 2008

Me2

Zzzzzzzzzz

I am so bored.  And it's not like I don't have anything to do.  I've got tons of research to do on local non-profit organizations that target children.  I just don't have the motivation to do it.  I actually just finished interviewing someone for an article so I'm goofing off with Kelly.  Well, she's working and I'm goofing off.

I'm searching The Washington Post for jobs.  As I was setting up for my interview, I was thinking about my future and if this was what I wanted to do with the rest of my life.  I'm not so sure it is.  I love my job, but I don't see myself growing in it.

I'm IMing Kale about it  now.

Carolyn:  I think I need a new job.
Kale:  Okay, random.  What were you thinking?
C:  What do you do?
K:  I'm an auditor.  If you're bored with public policy, you'd die if you had my job.  What are you good at doing?
C:  Lots of things.  Shopping, dressing myself, making cupcakes...does any of that count?
K:  Um...no.  Maybe a better question is, what are you qualified to do?
C:  Does any of the above count?  Kidding.  Um, I have a MA in public policy...so I'm qualified for...the job that I have now!  This is sad.
K:  Yeah, great time to want a career change.  :)
C:  What about finance?  I mean, that's semi-related.
K:  Yeah, look into that.
C:  Do I need a MBA?  How hard is it to get one of those?
K:  Do you have three years?
C:  Ugh, forget it.  I'm not into collecting degrees....anymore.
K:  And no, you don't need an MBA, but you have a MA so that's a good start.
C:  Okay, I'm going back to goofing off.
C:  This is too productive for me.  I don't know what's with your family...working and all that crap!
K:  Okay, see you tonight.
K:  Wait, what?  Are you trying to harass my sister?
C:  Totally!  But she's not having any of it.
K:  Yeah.  I taught her well.  What time are you going to be here?
C:  I'll call you when I leave here.  I figured I would stay here to write some notes to my boss.
K:  One of your notes should say, "I quit!"
C:  Niiiice.  Bye!
K:  Bye!

So, I found three potentials.  I'm going to get my resume together and apply.

Wow.  So maybe my apartment IS good luck.

Me2

Jitterbug

So much to write about for this weekend!

First of all, I was shocked when I heard about Tim Russert’s death. A lot of people in my office had met him (including my boss) and they all said that he was such a great man.  He was the commencement speaker for my high school's graduation.  Not my graduation, but my alma mater's 2008 graduation.  I doubt anyone is going to be here tomorrow because his memorial is tomorrow at St. Albans (where GirlJamie teaches!) and I think a lot of people are going to be there…my boss included.

Now on to the good stuff! So Kelly and I were all set for our Big Gay Weekend, but our plans changed a little. We still went to the movie Friday night and saw the Joan Crawford look-alikes.  It was quite impressive! We ended up skipping the dance and went over to Kale's.  He lives in a house (rented, of course) in Columbia Heights and lives with three other guys (and one of their semi-live in girlfriend). They were all really cool. One of his friends, Brent, went to my rival high school. It’s nice to have a boyfriend (oops, spoiler alert!) who’s more my age and has the same sense of humor. Like, when I quote from The Simpson’s, he gets it and laughs!

On the cab ride over, Kel and I were curious to see how her brother would introduce me. Unfortunately, for us, he was out getting beer and Kelly did the honors. She introduced me as her roommate, but they seemed to have heard of me before. We didn’t do anything in particular Friday night.  We just all hung out and drank. We got hungry and Kale and I went and got pizza for everyone. As we walked we had the conversation that every couple has in the beginning; the status talk! Kale was like, "I know we said that were open to date other people, but I don't really want to and I don't really want you to either!" I brought up my breakup and said that it still hurt and he was like, “Well, you loved him and you were with him for a year so that’s normal, but he’s an asshole so don’t let him ruin something that could be awesome. And in case you haven’t noticed, I’m not Alan!” And that was enough for me.  He's my boyfriend! Hee!

On the way home, I told Kelly about it and she about peed herself.  She's like our #1 fan!  She kept teasing me about it and called me her sister-in-law.

We watched some of the gay parade on Saturday, but it started to rain and we ran home to get ready to meet up with Kale and his crew to see The Legwarmers in Baltimore.  I really pity anyone who hasn't seen them.  They're a local 80s "tribute" band and they are awesome!  Kale told us the night before that he had extra tickets and asked Kel and I if we wanted to go.  We were like, "Hells yea! Nuts to the gay festivities!"  We got all gussied up, too.  I wore a Jem tshirt, a short jean skirt, and yellow Chucks.  I wore my hair in a side ponytail, with a neon scrunchie.  Kel wore an Alf tshirt, a fake leather mini skirt, and leggings.  And she crimped her hair!  And we piled on the Madonna jewelry.  We looked hilarious.  I have to post a picture.  Kale rocked the preppy look and wore a light pink polo shirt with a yellow sweater. I had seen The Legwarmers several times before, but I didn’t know Kale knew about them as well. See, that’s just more reason for us to be together.

They were awesome, as usual and played some good songs. They ended with Journey’s Don’t Stop Believing. Kelly was sad that they didn’t do Come On Eileen and that’s her favorite 80s song. They did do my favorite 80s song, Just Like Heaven. I didn't spend much time with my boyfriend (hee!) because Kelly and I worked our way up to the front and danced while the guys stayed behind. We were sore and hoarse the next day because we screamed our butts off! That night, I debated whether or not to spend the night at Kale's, but we had agreed to move slowly so I didn't.  Kel and I didn't go to bed until almost 4:30 in the morning. We were both so giddy:  me over the concert and she over me and her brother.  I told her that at least if anything went wrong in our relationship, I could count on her to help me fix it.  She laughed and said that I'm the first girlfriend Kale's had that she's liked. Awww, I was touched. She was like, “He usually dates girls who are bossy and high maintenance.” Hmmm. That’s how I would describe my last few boyfriends! See, more reason!

We finally crawled out of bed around noon and I called my dad for Father's Day.  He and my mom were at their summer house, probably having cocktails and resenting each other. They are so WASPy. Kel took pity on me and invited me to go over to her parent’s house for F-Day. Along with her brother, of course. I had met their parents before and they are so cool and down to earth.  They even showed up when I moved in with Kelly to help me.  How nice is that?!  It’s no wonder I love their kids. We went to Bethesda (where Kel and Kale grew up) and then to dinner and I got to see pictures of Kelly and Kale when they were little.  They looked so much alike!

Now it's Monday again and I can't wait for the weekend.  My sister is coming up from South Carolina.  I am picking her up Thursday and then she leaves on Sunday.

I just checked the weather in Puerto Vallarta and today it's cloudy and 79 degrees.  As opposed to DC where it's humid and 82!  But it's suppose to rain later today and cool things down.

And I know that now that I have a boyfriend (hee!) that means no summer fling in Mexico, but that's cool with me.  I know that I have an awesome boyfriend to come home to.

Jun. 13th, 2008

Me2

Capital Pride!

CAPITAL PRIDE FINALE!

WHOO HOOO!

Okay, so I am totally excited for this weekend.  Kelly and I have been planning this for weeks now.  It's the ending of the Capital Pride celebration.  It's basically a big gay festival in DC and it is all sorts of amazing!

My boss is letting everyone leave early so I'll be quick with this entry.

Tonight, we're going to see Strait-Jacket and after the movie, there's going to be a Joan Crawford look-alike contest!  Yess!  Then I think we're going to a dance that's kind of like the gay prom Carrie and Stanford went to in a S&TC episode.

Then tomorrow is the parade and then on Sunday it's the Festival.

Okay, I'm off to take a nap so I will be well rested for the weekend!

Jun. 12th, 2008

Me2

Continuation...

I meant to finish yesterday's post, but I got caught up watching Top Chef!  I am SO glad that Stephanie won.  She's so cute and she seems like someone that I would be friends with.  And that's how I judge reality tv stars.  I got Kelly to watch it with me and I think she found my snarky comments about Lisa more entertaining than the show itself.  I was really worried that Lisa would win and I swore that if that happened, I would NEVER watch Top Chef EVER again.  But girlfriend did do well so I guess I have to give her some credit.  I can't wait for the reunion episode because she says she gets dirty looks from random strangers.  HA!  LOVES IT!  She'll probably blame it on editing blah blah blah realitycakes.

I didn't finish my weekend recap.  I left off with the gown fitting, correct?

So GirlJamie and I were doing our gown fittings in an un-air conditioned dress shop and DYING from the heat and humidity and then it began to POUR!  Another thunderstorm.  We sat in the dress shop until her mom came to pick us up (we had our gown with us) and then she dropped us off at my apartment.  We waited for BoyJamie to come pick her up and while we waited we played the Sweet Valley High board game.  I was Jessica, she was Lila, BoyJamie was Elizabeth (see, even he didn't want to be Enid...poor Enid.)  Then as soon as they left, the lights went out!  I flipped out and called Kale and told him to come keep me company in the dark.  Wink wink!  He was actually grocery shopping with Kelly so he helped her home and ended up hanging out with us for the rest of the night.  We rented The Orphanage and Kale and I made out!  ZOMG!  We agreed though that we're going to take it slow (famous last words!) and just date for now.  And that means that we can date other people too so I'm still available for any Mexico fling that may occur!

Kelly is totally psyched about us dating.  She pointed out that the Quebec House Good Fortune is working its magic on me and Kale.

On Sunday, I met another cute boy for coffee, but the outcome was total opposite!  I met with Drew and we did our swap.  We made small talk and then I was like, "This is awkward.  Out with it!  How's Alan?"  I had told her awhile ago that I didn't want to hear how he was doing because it was too painful and I still loved him, but I was curious...especially to know if he was seeing anybody.  Drew said that Alan had kind of become an asshole.  "Well, that's nothing new," I joked.  He said that Alan was still bitter and blamed me for everything that happened and when Drew tried to defend me, Alan accused him of wanting to date me now that he (Alan) was out of the picture.  I told Drew that he didn't have to defend me because this just proved to me that it never would've worked out with Alan.  He said that Alan thought of himself as a failure.  His marriage failed and so did our relationship.  My icy heart melted a little bit by that, but not enough to stop myself from telling Drew that I was now dating again.  He was like, "Good for you!"  I wonder if he's going to tell Alan.  I kind of hope he does.  I am such a bitch sometimes!

I spent the rest of the day hanging out at the mall with Kale.  We held hands!!!  Squee!

I just got called into my boss' office and I'm being sent on assignment!  Really, I just have to go run errands.  Anything's better than just sitting around and it's so nice outside!  Tootles!

Jun. 11th, 2008

Me2

The Mystery of Quebec House

So, I had an interesting weekend.

Friday night?  I'm trying to think of what I did.  Nothing I think.  I worked late and then by the time I came home, Kelly had gone out and I was too tired to do anything so I gave myself a pedicure and watched Ghost Whisperer.  God, I LOVE Jennifer Love Hewitt.  Confession time.  When I was little, I had a Barbie exercise video and she was in it!  And then one afternoon my childhood best friend and I were watching/dancing/singing along to Kids Incorporated and she was on that show too!  And we flipped out.  And I have loved her ever since.

I know.  I'm beyond help.

So, where was I?  Oh, Friday night pedicure with J. Lo Hew and Chipotle.  That was about it for me and Friday.

On Saturday morning/afternoon, I met Kale for koffee.  I found out that I'm living in his old room.  He told me that my apartment is good luck because its inhabitants have had good events occur in theirs lives shortly after moving in and then they've moved out and passed the good fortune on.  Like, he and his best friend from college lived there and then his best friend got engaged to his girlfriend.  Then shortly after Kelly moved in (to replace the married best friend), Kale got a new job!  He then moved out to be closer to work and then I moved in to the room where he used to live.  I told him that I already had the dream job and I just got dumped so I'm not sure what good luck the apartment would bring me.  I said that the only thing I could think of was that if I hadn't moved it, I never would've lived with Kelly and then never would've have met him.  He said that didn't mean I was lucky, it meant he was lucky.  He's a sly one, I tells ya!  I really like him, but I think he may be a little too frat boy for me.  He's a bit preppy.

I talked to GirlJamie about him later that day and she just said that I was used to "Grandpa" Alan, being all mature and conservative and she's right.  Kale is closer to my age than he was and more like the guys I used to date in college.  GirlJamie and I were doing our final gown fittings.  She and BoyJamie are getting married in three weeks in Puerto Vallarta, Mexico on July 5th.  Here's what my dress looks like, but in Caribbean Blue.

The front...



The back.



I like to describe the color as the color of the Pacific Ocean.  I am so looking forward to this wedding.  Not only because I love The Jamies, but because this trip is my summer vacation too and probably the only one I will be able to afford.  It drained my wallet and my vacation time since I'm going to be in Mexico from July 2nd to the 9th.  Yes, I'm crashing the honeymoon...sort of.  We first planned this trip to be a vacation for our little group of friends and then BoyJamie was like, "Why don't we get married while we're there?!"  So their honeymoon is crashing our vacation, actually.  I'm the Maid Of Honor and two friends of ours from college (Renee and Allison) are bridesmaids as is BoyJamie's sister, Jessica.  And the groomsmen and Best Man are friends of BoyJamie's from college and they're hot!  Yay for being single again!

It's been so hot here lately.  DC's having a heat wave.  I think we've even set some records.  Along with the crime, the humidity really makes DC suck sometimes.  It was built on a swamp and boy, you can tell!  It seems like we've only had two weather patterns lately:  humidity and rain.  Just walking the few blocks from my apartment to the metro has caused my face to melt.  I feel like Samantha, in Sex & The City, when her chemo caused her to go through early menopause.

I'm feeling like this entry is so random today.  There's so much going on and I just finished a large iced coffee.  So I'm going to have to cut this short and run to the ladies room!

Jun. 5th, 2008

Me2

Potpourri

Just like the Jeopardy category, this entry is a hodgepodge of stuff.

So, the whole office won't shut up about Obama winning the Democratic nominee. My work is very closely tied to politics and such so it's actually a big deal for my organization. I think I have been rather vague about what I do and it's because most people find it quite boring. I work for the Urban Institute, which is a non profit organization that promotes social policy. I assist in conducting policy research, which my boss then analyzes and uses to evaluate social programs and services and then we get the findings out to the public.

Are you asleep yet?

I actually really like my job, despite the complaining and whining.

I thought I was going to have to sleep at the office last night because we had like, a tornado/sever thunderstorm. I was so afraid that the metro wouldn't be working and I'd have to take a cab home. I ended up getting a ride from a co-worker. A lot of traffic signals were out and trees had fallen over and were blocking the streets. It was a disaster! It took us over an hour to get to my apartment! Kelly said that a few people died when trees fell on their cars. The power went out where she worked and it hasn't been restored yet. She's sitting at home, eating cookie dough and watching Guiding Light and I'm sitting here, reading about child care subsidies!  Not fair!

I think I have a date with Kale this weekend. He flat out asked me out, but I said no and then I think Kelly told him that I just gotten dumped. He then called me back and asked me out for coffee on Saturday afternoon. It sounded harmless so I said yes, but I think I'm going to bring Kelly with me. I really don't want to get into anything, but I do miss dating. My mom jokes that I started dating when I was in kindergarten and I always had a boyfriend....sometimes more than one! Wow, so I was a pretty slutty kid.

And I have a coffee thing with Drew on Sunday. Yes, my ex-boyfriend's roommate. But we're just getting together so that I can give him my Box O' Bad Memories and I can get my Rainbow sandals. I love those damn sandals! I do miss him though. When I watched Top Chef last night, and I thought Lisa would FINALLY get the axe, I wanted to call him up and talk to him about it and then scream at the tv with him when she MADE TO THE FINALE! He was like my best friend. The fish to my chips. The Domenico Dolce to my Stefano Gabbana (oops, wait, they actually DID break up!). The Todd to my Liz (but with less punching and cheating...MUCH less!).

I think I'm actually looking forward to my thing with Drew because I feel like even if Alan and I are broken up, at least we have a friendship with Drew in common. So, there's something still tying us together. Ugh, I am so embarrassed to admit that. Even in the past when we had broken up, we still were friends...with benefits. So this is like, the first time when the break up has been completely over.

Maybe I just need to ween myself off of everything Alan-related. I'll meet with Drew, but then maybe I'll gradually stop hanging out with him. I'm an Alan Addict and I'm starting a 12 step program.

I am so lame.

Jun. 2nd, 2008

Me2

Weekend Update

I'm back to having fun weekends again, I guess. I hope. I went to the movies Friday night and then to an Air Guitar contest on Saturday night.  I met Kelly's brother, Kale.  And he's kute.  Okay, that was so dumb. I’m sorry!

But seriously...Air Guitar contest? It was pretty awesome.  I played Guitar Hero when I went to SC to see my sister and it's hard! But I may just be super terrible. I never played a musical instrument when I was a kid (I was a swimmer/cheerleader) and now I can see why.  This may be a stupid question but, is learning to play a real guitar similar to learning to play Guitar Hero? I'd be interested to see how a real guitarist would fare.  Kale was pretty good.  He said that he and his roommates have their own contests and are super competitive with each other. He told us that once; one of his roommates had to pee so badly, but refused to put the game on pause, and peed his pants.  I teased Kale that it was really him; he was just blaming it on his roommate and that stories like that will not impress the ladies.  He then asked what would impress me.  Slick!  But not interested! Well, shouldn’t be interested.

Alan called me Sunday afternoon.  I saw that it was him on the caller id and made Kelly answer it.  He wanted to know when it would be a good time to come get his stuff.  I haven't returned his call yet.  Our friends (meaning Alan and me) all know about the breakup.  I've had a lot of sympathetic emails and phone calls.  A lot of the girls have said that they knew all along that our relationship was doomed to fail because we're both too much alike. It’s nice that they tell me this after the fact! I do think that we both can be very self centered.  Yeah, that's right, I admit it.  I'm selfish!

So then after I pretended to not be home, Kelly and I did some major cleaning.  The apartment looks soooooo good now.  We're both going to make an attempt at keeping it clean.  We even talked about having a party this weekend.  A party is what I need to get fully over the slump I've been in.

May. 31st, 2008

Me2

Sex & The DC!

So, GirlJamie, Kelly (my roommate), and her friend, Jill, went to see Sex & The City last night.  We all loved it.  Kelly had only seen a handful of episodes so she didn't remember who everyone was but the movie did a good job of recapping the whole show in about 5 minutes in the beginning.  That's all I'm giving away...nothing else.

It was nice to be out with friends after the disastrous week I had.  Everything was just falling apart...personally and professionally.  I've been working on training the new hire and I don't know if she's getting everything or not.  She writes down everything as I explain it and when I ask her if she has any questions she says no, but then I see her run into my boss' office 15 minutes later, asking questions.  She and my boss are the same age (and a bit older than me) so I wonder if she just feels more comfortable with my boss instead.  Or maybe she doesn't like taking direction from a girl who's old (or young?) enough to be her daughter?

After work yesterday, I met GirlJamie for dinner (before the movie) and we dissected The-Event-That-Shall-Not-Be-Named-But-Rhymes-With-Makeup.  She said that breaking up with BoyJamie was one of the best things that ever happened to their relationship.  She had just lost her grandmother and was having a complete melt down over it (and understandably so) and BoyJamie wasn't being there like she wanted him to be and then he accused her of suffocating him.  So they split.  She said that her used that time to think about what she wanted out of a relationship and blah blah blah lovecakes!  And then BoyJamie used that time to realized that he had taken her for granted and blah blah blah missyoucakes!  And then almost a year later, they were back together...moved in together...and got engaged.

So, I guess I just need to use this time to think about what Carolyn wants, needs, deserves.  I need Alan.  I want Alan.  But I deserve better than a fair weather boyfriend.

I found a bunch of his crap and I just threw it all in a box.  That's the pits; finding your ex's crap all over your place when the last thing you want to see are things that remind you of him.  As I was debating whether to donate it all or just throw it out, I thought about stuff that I may have left at his place.  My Rainbow sandals!  That was it.  An old pair of sandals.

GirlJamie said that the hardest about the "leftovers" for her was trying to figure out if the cds and movies that were labeled Jamie were hers or his.  See, even when they break up, they're so cutesy.

But I have found that Kelly and I are spending more time together.  We weren't friends before we lived together.  We just found each other on Craig's List.  We hung out last night and tonight we're going to the 9:30 Club to see her brother in an air guitar contest.  This should be interesting.

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